Family Unit

Today is mothers day, and of course with any holiday I think of my family. I am the only one away from home right now, and so I am missing them loads. Today I am mostly grateful for them, and for the fact that I am in a family.
I have been texting a friend of mine in the navy, and we were talking about how we miss our families, especially on days like today. While, we were talking about this, I started thinking about how lucky I am to have a family. I not only have family, but I have a family that I miss!
While there have been struggles, especially through my parents divorce and after. We have made our way through them and slowly piece by piece have been fixing our family unit.We all realize how important our family is, so we fought to make it work.
I know that a family is one of the best gifts we are given on earth. The family we are born into, and the family we will create. It is our responsibility to do our best, to keep the family connected. I know I need to avoid contention, and have good communication with them. I know honesty is the best policy, and that is something I am slowly making progress in (not that I am dishonest, sometimes I just have a hard time confronting people). 
I am so grateful to have seen other families, that are so connected, and work so hard to be a strong unit.It is so great to have good examples around me, so I can know how I want my future family to be.I hope that I will be able to be as good as so many of the families I see. 
I love observing, and taking note what I love about other people and their characteristics, because that is how I progress. I see how good other people are and it makes me want to be good. I think we learn best from other people, it is easier to learn from others mistakes then make them ourselves. I think it is also easier to do good, and want good when we see the happiness people have when they do it.
Life is good, and full of challenges. These trials come so we can progress, so we might as well take what we can from them. Take advantage of this short time on earth that we are given, and make the most of who we are.

It has been a long time.

I haven't written in quiet sometime, mainly because I feel that not many people read it. I also am not sure if I want people to read, my sad excuse of writing. Today I woke up feeling really down, and out over somethings that have been happening over the last little bit. The past couple days, I feel I have been paying for decisions I have made, and lost things of importance to me. This is not why I started blogging again though. I will probably touch up on that subject later.
 I wanted to blog because, although I am having a really tough obstacle I can still find the joy in life. I am trying really hard to figure myself out, to know what I want. I love the simple distractions the boys I nanny give me.
Lately four year old Nathan has decided he wants to marry me, and so has his six year old brother. Nathan (4), and Josh (6) had an argument over me. Josh said I should marry him because he is older, and we could get married sooner. Nathan then said "Clancy, please love only me". I told them I loved them both, and I would be happy with either of them (couldn't bare to tell them I wouldn't end up with either of them). I loved hearing their funny argument, Josh told Nathan that when he (Josh) and I get married Nathan could come visit us. I am not sure when this turned into a competition, Josh used to be fine with the idea of Nathan marrying me, in fact he gave me permission to still be his nanny after I married Nathan.
I love these conversations with them, and the simple way they think. They are so innocent, and honest I totally appreciate it. Moments like those are why I remember that I am a nanny. I am so grateful that I get these funny conversations with them. They distract me from my own sorrows, and make me forget myself, if only for a moment. Children are so funny, the other day I told a friend of mine how if I could make a career in nannying I would. I hope that someday, I will be something better, a mom! I really look forward to that day. Being a mom is a far better thing then being a nanny, and I love being a nanny.
Today, I am not feeling very funny, but I just had to write a little bit. I had to share that simple, funny conversation. I wanted to write it down so I could remember it for later. At times when I feel no one wants me, or that I am lonely. I can remember Josh, and Nathan appreciate me : ).