I refuse!!!

I refuse, to accept the fact that I have an ouchy cavity that needs to be taken care of. I so do not want to spend money on a silly tooth!!! I don't even know if I have health insurance any more, it that is the case then yikes!!! My camera just completely broke and this small bundle of funds I have I am putting in for another camera. I refuse to spend that money on my tooth. Goodness gracious, we talked about the plan of salvation at institute the other day. This of course invovled talking about the resurrection. Yep excited for that no dentist bills, strike me dead, but not till after I get my camera!
Anyway those are my thoughts as of right now, mostly cause I just brushed my teeth and my tooth is a slight irritation. It has been a busy couples of weeks full of nannying, church and school. I taught the lesson on thursday for school YIKES!!! I was very nervous I am not a very good stand in front of a group and present something type person. Not only that but my friend Audrey found out I was teach (why do I tell people things) and she came to watch! While I loved the support and the fact she wanted to watch me teach, I didn't want to let her down. So what does that mean?  MORE PRESSURE!! The lesson actually went fairly well even though I was quiet nervous. During my review of the lesson they said they couldn't even tell I was nervous, except for the fact I messed my hair up which I do sometimes when I feeling a little pressured! the best thing about being stressed over something is when it ENDS!!
I am learning that more and more as time goes on, that my Father in Heaven knows me and he does want me to succeed and grow. I love that fact. I love my Savior! I love that although I don't have a dad on earth who is capable of guiding me, I have a Father in Heaven who is the perfect Father!! How blessed I am to know this!!
On sunday I went with some friends of mine to the Mormon Battalion in Old Town San Diego. I came early with my friend Jozel, and while we were waiting for our other friends we watched the Joseph Smith movie. I of course weeped over this as I usually do. But some things came to mind while I was watching it. I always think of Joseph as such a hero to me as "all knowing" almost. But while watching the movie I realized how little he did know and how much our Father taught him!  Joseph didn't know a family is forever, he didn't know about the word of wisdom.
I know these are silly thoughts that everyone has probably thought of, but to me it was so humbling to think about. Its humbling for me to remember how blessed we are to have the true church of Christ on the earth today. What made me be chosen to be so blessed to be on earth at this time and to be born with the knowlege I have?!  I am so very lucky to have been born into this knowledge, whereas my hero Joseph Smith didn't learn these truths until he was in adulthood!
So those are some of my thoughts and feelings. I have been up since six AM because of somethings going on with my nanny family (explain at a later date). I am tired it has been a long day, but those thoughts I had  to write down, I had to get some of these things written down so I could remember. I hope I never forget what I have been learning lately. I hope I will always remember my Savior and how He influences my life!! I could never do this without Him. He is my Iron rod, He is my goal. I want to return to my Heavenly Father and brother Jesus Christ. I want to hug them and thank them for being part of my life!
Now I am heading to bed so tired and grateful right now!!